That’s wonderful!! I’m so glad! I hope you will find it as helpful as I did.
I started reading Cal Newport’s other book, How to Become a Straight-A Student, so I’ll keep everyone updated on that too. There’s a third book, How to Be a Highschool Superstar, which I haven’t read yet, but may do that in my spare time :)
I feel like there’s just so many characters and emotions and people inside of me and I have no idea how to handle this feeling like I’m 100 people at the same time
Have you ever felt like you were so tired that upon hitting the bedsheets, you feel so heavy such that you’re able to sink through the mattress and the floor?
More than often enough I’ve experienced this during my JC years, especially coming home after a long day of school and drama or dance rehearsals. Sometimes I felt like the activities zapped too much of my willpower, but I was grateful anyway, because the amount of performing and work experience i’ve gained was incomparable to anything I could have been offered at anywhere else in the world.
This week has not been the best week. Okay, probably my worst week since A level results were released. And that was just 4 weeks ago.
I screwed up my applications which resulted in displeasing a teacher, I irresponsibly abused an alumni’s privilege and now I am here, 2 days till the dead line for uni applications, with unfinished essays. I keep procrastinating it because I kinda know that no matter how hard I try, I can’t get into that college. But for me to even try, is huge enough.
Fortunately, I had a good weekend by taking a much-needed rest at home. I only had two engagements over the two days: Meeting Bryan and going for ITM practice. I guess these two things give me the purest joy and confidence that I have aspects of my life that I have not screwed up in, and that I trust that they will not grief me in ways that other parts of my life have. I try not to be a sour puss, but the ambivalence that is drowning my life is definitely not something that’s a breeze.