When he left, my stomach tied up in insurmountable knots and my heart raced at a pace like never before. Before he left, I wanted to escape. I wanted to free myself of my current obligations and just embark on a solo journey to a deserted land. But on that night, I couldn’t help feeling insecure about us.
It was something I did not expect of when he left town. I envisioned relishing in my own freedom, not being expected to leave the house for other people, lying about and surfing the web. This limbo of not needing to do anything was something I truly desired and looked forward to. Sure, on a day where I’m finally able to spend the entire day at home just lazing about since exams ended, it feels pretty awesome. But all this mindless activity really makes you think about other important things, since they don’t really distract you from the realities of life.
I kinda regret that I wanted to get away from my life, my schedules, my friends and even him. But I realise that this is necessary in order for our relationship to grow. Time apart was truly a good thing for me. Especially now that exams are over, I really have the time to think deeper about what I really want for the next chapter of our lives.
Many things are set in store for us: Army, coping with the uneasiness of anticipating results, looking for a job, learning how to drive; practically many things now fall into our own hands. Huge amounts of responsibility to be weighed down on us. That doesn’t really sound carefree at all, does it? The issue is, how are we able to interlace relationships and growing up?
This period demands us to do much soul-searching and experimenting in order to find ourselves. To see what works for us, what cringes us, and what completely falls out of line with our beliefs. As cliché as most coming-of-age movies seem to pan out, the discovery of oneself is truly a mind-boggling debacle. How are we able to make the other person happy while we’re still finding out about how to make ourselves happy? Well, this comes with time, but my best bet (optimistically) is that relationships play a huge role in growing up. It can come as a bonus for some, or it may be just another factor in the equation. Over time, I’ve begun to see relationships differently, mainly because of the people I’ve met in junior college. These two years proved that the people you meet have a way of defining who you are as a person. Their actions challenge you to react in certain ways. Sometimes, if not deliberately acted upon, it reveals a lot about a person. All in all, the bonds you share with people are crucial in determining your existence and your personality in social settings. Both go hand in hand. So I’ve decided that, this relationship will be important for everyone’s growth. For the two of us, and the people that observe us from the sidelines. Such is the web of correlations.
It’s not all dust and mildew — these stores are putting the cool back in quiet time
it’s that time of the year [finals week] and so here is a post of useful things via myself and my mom who is a teacher !!